knock me out cold

Hey hun.
Why u run away when im tryin 2 speak ffs.. I never do tht 2 u.. The reason i say i really miss u is coz when im up late n i have no1 2 talk 2.. N i just
remember when we used 2 talk frm 11pm 2 5am.. N nw we never talk so yea i fucking miss u badly:( I like 2 hug n cuddle.. U liked it b4. Im still sure u like it
so why u being mean 2 me? I never did anything nothing wrng 2 u.. I still think bout u n how r u n i hope ur ok.. U was the best thing in my life.. B4 i met u
my life was shit used 2 cut all time coz my dad used 2 beat me, brother n mum up.. Push my mum dwn stone stairs n beat me n my brother black n blue.. I couldnt
do anything 2 protect her :..( When i tryd he beat me mre n used knock me out cold.. Anyway i dnt wana talk bout tht makes me upset n depressed but maybe thts
why i was so huggy n graby n protective with u.. N thts y i went alil mad when u said ur dad hit u. Made me think bad memories.. N my life goin bak 2 being
shit with my step dad n mum but ill never stop lovin u shay u was the one 1 changed n loved me made me felt wanted in my life.. I dnt think ill ever love any1
much as u. I am movin on but u had sam 2 fall bak on when we broke up i had no1 i felt the full blow of losin sme1 who ment the world 2 me the pure heartache..
It still hurts nw when i think bout it.. I wouldnt change a thing between us.. things happen 4 reason hun 1st fight we had n the 1st kiss n hug in infinite :(
Im nt sure how to end this email wasnt smething easy to write.. I want us 2 be gd friends n have fun still.. N yea tht means i still wana hug n cuddle n throw
water on ya.. ice cold freezin water.. Or the pool.. K hun cya later.. N stop being a meanie plz?

frm a unwanted big softie puppy..